Desiree Fortin, mother of triplets, shares her heartfelt story of overcoming infertility.
Anyone who sees the photo above cannot imagine Desiree Fortin’s journey to finally carry her three precious babies in her arms. In a letter to infertility published in Love What Matters, the mother recalls the struggle to fulfill her dream of becoming a mother.
“Dear Infertility,
I hated you. You steal dreams. You break hearts. You bring grief. You consume lives. You are the reason I couldn’t get pregnant on my own. You have sunk my heart into pure anguish at not being able to parent like most women can. You told me my body wasn’t good enough. You may have been a big part of my story, but you didn’t define me. And on this date two years ago, I kicked your ass. I beat you. I showed that there is a way to overcome infertility and God planted life in my womb.
Infertility, you brought so much with you when you came into my life. It’s not that I just couldn’t get pregnant. You brought me more tears than I thought possible. Because of you, I’ve laid on my bathroom floor feeling completely empty countless times after a negative pregnancy test. Again and again I had to endure injections, bruises and all kinds of medications because when you are infertile and you seek treatment, you have to be willing. You are expensive and exhausting physically, emotionally and mentally. Infertility, you drowned my heart in disappointment and agony. And honestly, it was really painful every time I heard the words “I’m pregnant” from someone other than me. And yet, in the midst of it all, you brought me hope.
As much as I hated you, Infertility, I am also grateful that you were part of my story. You made me stronger. Even before I got pregnant, my strength was growing. Not only did I feel like Wonder Woman after all those injections, medications, blood tests, appointments, I also found my emotional strength. I learned to be brave and walk our story with faith, trusting that God knew every detail better than I did. I learned to be brave when my husband gave me progesterone shots, which hurt like you can hardly imagine, every day for two months so I could get pregnant and stay pregnant. I never imagined that I would be labeled as infertile. Still, Infertility, it’s because of you that I was able to be a mother to Charlize, Sawyer, and Jax. This love I experience with them is absolutely undeniable. It’s the greatest feeling in the world and if you weren’t a part of my story I would be missing out on a truly honorable role as their mother. It is because of you that two years ago I found myself lying on a stretcher in a medical clinic, waiting for precious and perfect embryos to be transferred into my uterus. Infertility, God used you in my life to create a platform for my story and reach the hearts of people who were going through the same pain as I was. And it’s because of you that I have a greater understanding of what hope really is. It is because of you that two years ago I found myself lying on a stretcher in a medical clinic, waiting for precious and perfect embryos to be transferred into my uterus. Infertility, God used you in my life to create a platform for my story and reach the hearts of people who were going through the same pain as I was. And it’s because of you that I have a greater understanding of what hope really is. It is because of you that two years ago I found myself lying on a stretcher in a medical clinic, waiting for precious and perfect embryos to be transferred into my uterus. Infertility, God used you in my life to create a platform for my story and reach the hearts of people who were going through the same pain as I was. And it’s because of you that I have a greater understanding of what hope really is.
Infertility, I don’t hate you anymore. God made something beautiful emerge from the ashes. Hope does not disappoint. Hope is having faith in what seems impossible. It’s trusting God when it seems impossible. My journey into motherhood would not be the same without hope. Infertility, today, when I really reflect on these years that you were a part of my life, I can only say, thank you.
Sincerely,
Hopeful Mom.”
Source: babieshealthus.com
